Why do we find it so hard to be nice to ourselves?
After some recent rejection in my love life I have been noticing how difficult it is to treat myself with compassion and respect. Why is often our default position to be cruel and harsh with ourselves?
Why do we find it much easier to assume there is some wrong with us than to realise that it may actually be the other person with the problem?
And this us not just the case for me in romantic relationships, an inability to respect myself and my efforts is pervasive in many other situations including friendships and working partnerships.
Of course there are people at the other end of the spectrum, narcissists who cannot entertain the notion that they might be able to do anything even slightly wrong. However I definitely find myself in the former camp and ironically I am often drawn into relationships with narcissists (I suppose it is ideal for them to have someone to blame for everything…who agrees with them!)
Not quite so healthy for me…..!
So what is to be done? Mantras, meditation, therapy?
I guess nothing can really change these negative assumptions other than changing the narrative.
I actually had to mentally “sit myself down” yesterday and explain to myself that I am a good person, with good intentions. I offered someone my time and affection and they chose to reject that and act in a disrespectful manner. That is not my problem, it is theirs. I have nothing to be ashamed of and it is about time I stop ruminating on how doing things differently might have led to a better outcome.
And hence I berated myself for berating myself……but in a nice way!
I guess we all sit more predominantly on one side of the fence than the other but it is, above all, about respecting those you are in relationships with.. and most importantly that includes yourself!